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Tumblr Account [Wednesday March 10th 11:53pm] Hello to any and all who see this! Just in case anyone is interested or has a tumblr account, this is where you can find me "blogging" now. majorkatie.tumblr.com Hope everyone is well. ♥ [ 2 ] REPLY.

Hiatus. [Sunday September 21st 3:54pm] [ mood | melancholy ] Hey guys. I'm not on Livejournal much any more, as I'm sure you're all aware. I don't think I'll be renewing my paid account after it runs out this time and the gaps between my entries are getting bigger and bigger, so I'm thinking it's safe to say I'm done. For now, anyways. It was a good run. I've written about some of my biggest ups and downs on here. Love, heartbreak, sickness (both physical and mental) and everything in between. And I met some pretty amazing people on here. I won't be deleting my account, because I like having a record of my entire high school life, and because I still check my friends page to see what's new with all of you. Who knows, I might be back some day because this is a great way to vent, and no one ever understood better than you guys. But at this point in time it's just not convenient for me. If you want to get in contact with me, find me on one of the sites I still frequent. I'd love to hear from you guys. Facebook: katiekarcza@gmail.com (e-mail me at this address too if you want) DeviantArt: majorkatie eBay: major_katie I'm sad to go, but it's pointless to keep saying "I promise I'll try to update more often", since I never do. I'm sure you've all forgotten about me by now anyways. Bye Livejournal. :( [ 5 ] REPLY.

beauty in walking away. [Wednesday August 13th 10:16pm] [ mood | tired ] Summer is almost gone, and I've done basically nothing but work and sit at Tom's house. It has rained almost every day for the past couple weeks, and it's starting to get cold already. I guess I'll just have to dream about next summer when I'll actually be able to take some vacation time and enjoy it. This summer hasn't been much fun. I'm taking a photography course at the local art center in the fall, since I'm not going to school in the near future. I'm hoping I'll make some new friends. Lately I have had no one to turn to when I need comforting or to just ramble and complain and get everything out of me. Working full time is tiring, I never get enough sleep, and I rarely get more than one meal a day. I feel like crap literally all the time. I need serious motivation to get my life back in order because I am wearing myself very thin. [ 7 ] REPLY.

this hungry heart will not subside. [Thursday July 17th 10:54pm] [ mood | hot ] I am having trouble finding time for Livejournal these days. Sigh. So, since it's been more than a month since I updated... Birthday was good, I got a lovely new camera. It's a Sony Cybershot DSC-W170 and I love it so far. Been working at 3 Points for a while now, and next week I am training to replace the receptionist. Next Friday is her last day. So I guess that's good... I'll be getting a (hopefully) substantial raise, but not until next March. I'm a little nervous though, I have a lot of stuff to learn next week and we have to get my users all set up, alert everyone to send stuff to a new e-mail address, and Jocelyn has to teach me how to do expense reports, how she files everything, and whatever I have to do to send to payroll. It's probably the most responsibility I'll have had in a job so far, so it will be interesting. My days have mostly been sleep, work, tom's house, sleep. I took my Wii over there, since his playstation got broken in the move, but it's getting really hot so I don't have much energy these days. I have, however, been to the bar a few times since turning 19 and will hopefully party it up a few more times before summer is over. I can't believe July is half gone already. I will try to update a little more often. I miss you guys! I still read everyone's entries whenever I can, I just don't comment much. :( REPLY.

I don't want the next best thing. [Tuesday June 10th 7:37pm] [ mood | okay ] It took FOREVER, but I finally have a computer in my room. And it's the old "family" computer, so it's still got all my shit on it, which is fantastic. I do, however, have to do some major cleaning, as it's pretty much as full (ergo slow) as a computer can get. Hopefully this means I will be updating a little more often, but no promises. New job is going well. It's long hours and it's pretty boring, but I don't mind. I just sit in front of a computer all day, scanning paperwork into the inventory system. I even got my own little office at the end of the hall, with windows and everything. It's pretty awesome actually. Things are going pretty well with Tom and such. They're all moved in and the new place is great. Our 1 year anniversary is a few days before my birthday. And summer is finally here! (Oh, and I am completely in love with Sara Bareilles. OH OH, and I get to see the Arrogant Worms at the Sound of Music! I'm so excited!) [ 2 ] REPLY.

brief appearance [Wednesday May 28th 8:09pm] [ mood | content ] I'm still alive, I swear. I just haven't had time for the computer lately. So let's see. I got a job offer from my Dad's work to be an everything person in the warehouse and/or secretary once theirs leaves. They offered me $11.00 an hour (and I found out that keyholders at Solutions only make $9.25) so I accepted. I start on Monday. It'll be longer hours and more work, but it'll be worth it for the paychecks and I'll probably learn a lot more/have more chance for advancement there than I would in any retail store. Tom and his brother move this weekend, and life's busy right now. In about a month it'll be my 19th birthday and me and Tom's 1 year anniversary as well. Mmmyep. [ 1 ] REPLY.

ho hum. [Wednesday April 16th 8:37pm] [ mood | okay ] Wow, I sure have been neglecting my journal lately. A few things have happened since I last updated. Todd and Crystal moved out of their house yesterday, so Tom and Peter are there alone until the start of June. They've found an apartment here in Burlington, so that's a lot of stress off their shoulders. Tom's still going to nigh school twice a week, and I'm still working five days a week. Things are going pretty well at the store, but I recently found out that they fired a guy at my Dad's work where I worked for a month or so, and had I still been there, I would probably be making $15 an hour now. That's nearly double what I'm making at Solutions, which is very frustrating. I got a new cell phone so now I'm paying that bill monthly, and my rent has started up again now that I'm working full time. But according to my employee handbook we don't get a chance to get a raise until we've been with the company a year, and if that's the case, I probably won't be working there long. $8.75 an hour is enough for me to live off of, but I certainly won't be able to save very much unless I'm making more money than I am now. Anyways. Other than that, life is fine. My room is certainly more organized than it's ever been. But I have to say, for a store that sells organizational products, the company is not very organized. At least summer is on it's way! [ 4 ] REPLY.

what? [Friday March 28th 12:17pm] [ mood | blah ] Work is going okay. The store is almost all set up now, we're just pricing things and putting the finishing touches on stuff. Grand opening is next Saturday, and I'm hoping my hours change once the store is open because I worked Saturday and Sunday last weekend and I have to work the same this weekend. I understand that they need to get things done quickly but it's such a pain. I can't go out at night because I have to be up early. There's a big birthday party tonight and Tom and everyone are all going and getting wasted... and I can't go. So not only do I have no social life, but I'm left wondering what is going on when I'm not around. It's fucking with my head. And I haven't slept over at Tom's house since I got this job. It's basically stressing me out a lot, at the moment. Left early today because I have a migraine that I can't get rid of. Nap time. [ 3 ] REPLY.

breathe easy for a while [Monday March 17th 5:31pm] [ mood | happy ] My manager punched me in the eye today. No joke. He was unwrapping a big skid and my face happened to be in the wrong place as he yanked on the plastic wrap. It was pretty hilarious, and he actually hit me pretty hard. Not hard enough to get a black eye, but that would have been awesome. :P I got to leave early today because I worked 51 hours last week, even though we're supposed to have 44 at the most. Apparently they have to pay overtime for anything over that, so I'm hoping my pay this Friday will be nice. Too bad it's only one week's pay. Anyway, the store's coming along. They're aiming for an earlier opening date because we're more or less on schedule. My life these days is basically work, Tom, sleep, repeat cycle. We're planning to go snowboarding on Friday and we're finally going to get around to our Valentine's Day dinner this week (I hope!). It's been a month already but at least he remembered, haha. I still have the occasional moment where I'm unsure of how things are with him, but things have been pretty great overall. If we make it to my birthday, which I think we will, it'll be our one year anniversary. Kind of unrelated, I've been thinking about how different I was three+ years ago. I mean, all my self-esteem issues and moodiness basically killed the only two relationships I had in high school. I was so engulfed in self-pity and self-loathing most of the time that I couldn't enjoy life, and it's a lot to ask of your friends to have to deal with that. Now that I've grown up a little, I'm a lot more content with things the way they are and, as cheesy as it may sound, have gotten to the point where I actually like myself most of the time. Sure, I still have days where I think I'm a whale and days where I feel like I can't face the world, but I'm so, so much better than I used to be. I'm actually happy. Tell me baby, what's your story? REPLY.

blargh. [Tuesday March 11th 10:26pm] [ mood | content ] First couple days at my new job have been exhausting but overall very good days. I've basically just been building very large heavy shelves and putting sample products out so we'll know where everything goes when we get all the stock in. Every muscle in my body aches because it's been so long since I did any real physical activity and now, all of a sudden, I'm doing tons. Hooray! Nothing else that's interesting. Just trying to keep my strength up so I make it through this week. I'm excited for when the store opens and I no longer have to lift things, hammer things, or do either of those things on a ladder. REPLY.

words and pictures [Sunday March 9th 1:12pm] [ mood | content ] This morning I had an orientation at the store I'm going to be working at. Everyone I'm going to be working with seems really nice, and the manager is a huge dork who never stops cracking jokes. They showed us around and explained what we'll be doing until the store opens. The store is basically empty, so we'll mostly be setting up shelves and stocking them. It'll be tiring but I'm looking forward to it. Everything has to be organized by department, brand, size and colour, and there are a lot of rules about how things have to go on the shelves. I enjoy cleaning and organizing so I think I'll have fun with it. I'm only getting $8.75 an hour to start, but that's okay. One of the higher-ups mentioned that they hadn't designated a health & safety Rep yet, so I spoke to her afterward and volunteered. It'll be a little extra work, but I want to work my butt off at this place and climb the corporate ladder and whatnot. Ideally being the health & safety rep will get me to my first raise that much faster. Tom and I spent the weekend being lazy at my house because it snowed from early Friday evening to very late last night. He was doing some work for my Dad in the basement, taking down the old plaster walls on our stairs and putting in drywall. I'd never seen him do any construction before, and he's definitely talented. ( Small picture post. ) So tomorrow I start work and I'll be working a lot. Forgive me if posts are few and far between for a while. [ 3 ] REPLY.

I'm not gonna write you a love song 'cause you asked for it. [Tuesday March 4th 3:01pm] [ mood | calm ] Tom had a rough evening friday, so he stayed over here and we drank and played Rock Band until the wee hours in the morning, and then sat in my room watching some crazy British guy explore the Japanese underground porn industry. (Oh, the things Showcase airs after 2am.) On Saturday he took me out for a late breakfast and then we went to the mall for an hour or so. Then we had dinner and drinks at Tom's Dad's house, and then played more Rock Band on Sunday. It was so warm out yesterday. A nice little reminder that spring is on it's way. I'm so sick of the cold and dreariness. Got this week off and then I start at my new job next Monday. Hooray! [ 8 ] REPLY.

I sneezed about 300 times today. [Wednesday February 27th 8:56pm] [ mood | content ] Good news, ladies and germs - I got a job! I had an interview at this store called "Solutions" a few weeks back. They're opening a store in Burlington and, despite the fact that I used the words "dead animal carcasses" in my interview, I got offered a position today. Orientation is on the 9th and I start helping them set up the store on the 10th. Temp job ends this week as a result, so I get a week off and then I will *hopefully* be set for a while. My hours (to start) are Monday to Friday 8am-4pm, which is what I wanted. That'll likely change once the store is open but that's okay. So I'm pleased. I'll finally have a relatively steady income so I can afford to get all the things I've been wanting so badly, like a new phone. I'll also be able to start saving properly, which is key. (And for those curious as to what prompted me to say "dead animal carcasses" in my job interview - I was asked, "What was your least favourite thing about your job at Marilu's". And as you may recall, I was a deli server there. Perhaps not the most professional answer I could have given, I know, but apparently it worked.) In other news, I am sick for the second time in three weeks. Woo hoo! Edit: Forgot to add. After all the job-hunting I did, the place that ends up hiring me wasn't even one that I applied to! I put up my resume on Monster.ca and got a call from these people just because they saw that I was in the area. Talk about lucky! [ 11 ] REPLY.

It should be, "A LOT of time heals all wounds." [Monday February 25th 6:44pm] [ mood | apathetic ] I spent the whole day today (and most of last week, actually) thinking in circles. I was going to write a big long entry about how this thing is driving me insane, how much time I've wasted on it, how it practically haunts me and how I wish I had someone I could talk to about it, and that I should've been able to work past it by now. I have, however, decided against it. Save embarrassing myself, anyways. Ever felt like a song was written about you, and that you can relate to every single line in it? I have. This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending No hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending This is the way that we love; like it's forever then live the rest of our life, but not together Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life Can't get no love without sacrifice If anything should happen, I guess I'd wish you well A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell This is the hardest story that I've ever told No hope or love or glory, happy endings gone forevermore I feel as if I'm wasting, and I'm wasting every day This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending No hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending This is the way that we love; like it's forever then live the rest of our life, but not together Two o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind Can't get no rest, keep walking around If I pretend that nothing ever went wrong I can get to sleep, I can think that we've just carried on This is the hardest story that I've ever told, No hope or love or glory, happy endings gone forevermore I feel as if I'm wasting, and I'm wasting every day Four more days until Rock Band. REPLY.

[Thursday February 21st 11:49pm] [ mood | content ] Mom: ...and I have to try and get a new bra tomorrow. Dad: Do you know what they call bras in Germany? Mom and Katie:... Dad:(in poor German accent) "Dishlestoppemfloppin!" Mom: ... Better than "over-the-shoulder-boulder-holder". Oh my. REPLY.

[Wednesday February 20th 11:25pm] [ mood | calm ] Found out yesterday that all the work I did in the past week and a half has to be re-done because of a change in the computer system, or something. Which is stupid because I have to do the exact same thing over again, but good because it means I will probably stay at my Dad's work longer. So, yay money. If I stay til next friday I'm buying Rock Band with that paycheck. There was a lunar eclipse tonight, nice clear evening, lots of stars. Tom got into a night school program for the English course he needs to get into college, and I'm really glad because he's been so stressed out about it lately. It's been so cold. It's like living in the Arctic. [ 4 ] REPLY.

love love me [Monday February 11th 7:07pm] [ mood | cheerful ] Temp job is going well. I will probably work the rest of this week at least, and if things work out the way my Dad seems to think they will with the paychecks, I *should* be getting about $600 this friday. Which would be absolutely spectacular. Drove on the highway for the first time today, didn't kill anyone. Spent the last week or so either at work or at Tom's house playing Rock Band. It's so much fun. [ 2 ] REPLY.

work [Wednesday February 6th 8:36pm] [ mood | content ] Working at my Dad's new work today was great. There are only 5 other people that work there, which is a huge change for my Dad because he used to work with hundreds of other people. The building and warehouse are very small, but there's enough work to be done there. I basically took very poorly packaged airplane parts and re-packaged them, and then checked the item numbers and matched the parts with their tracking stickers. I got about 60 boxes done today. Some boxes had two large parts in them, others had up to 25 or 30 smaller parts. My dad said that the owner told him that I did basically how much he was expecting/hoping I'd do in a day. Going back tomorrow and probably friday, and I'm hoping that he asks me back next week to continue with the piles of other boxes that need stickering. I'm going to try to do more than 60 boxes tomorrow to up my chances of getting to stay longer. Should be easy since I got faster as the day progressed and I started late this morning. It's kind of tedious work, but it isn't hard and I can listen to my iPod all day. Plus I can pretty much go for a smoke break whenever I want, and everyone there is nice and the atmosphere is really laid-back. The owner is patient and a pretty funny guy, too. The only downside is that I have to be up at 6AM. But I can deal with that. Tom is taking Kung-Fu classes Monday and Thursday nights, so I am able to watch Survivor this season. His brother sold the house so he'll be having to move out within a few months, and he still doesn't know where he wants to go. I didn't get to see him today because of the awful driving conditions (big snow storm last night and all of today/tonight) and probably not tomorrow because of his class. Boo. But yes. At least I'm off my ass and making a little money. The boss is putting me on the payroll, though, which means it could be another two or three broke weeks before I get any of it. Oh well, at least it's coming. REPLY.

good news! [Tuesday February 5th 3:48pm] [ mood | bouncy ] Something I forgot to mention a while ago: My dad got a new job. He retired at Air Canada and his new job is similar to his old one, but much less stressful, with better hours, better pay, and it's closer. Which is a good thing. Yesterday was his first day. Even better - he called me from work today and told me that they need someone to do some menial warehouse tasks (putting stickers on boxes, etc). It's just a temp job, might only be this week & next, but it pays $10 an hour and I start tomorrow morning! Even if I only work there for three days or something it's still money, something I haven't had in a LONG time! YAAAAAY! [ 4 ] REPLY.

[Tuesday February 5th 12:37pm] [ mood | pissed off ] HEY GUYS. The assholes at Facebook decided to delete my account without giving me warning. I've started a new account, so please add me again! (What a huge fucking pain in the ass to have to start my account all over. I lost my massive score on Friends trivia! T_T) REPLY.

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